not trustin the key tat fits the door

now i finally understand how my predecessor felt over recent events when he was the key person in the comm...

its the same seniors in our club tat made him kinda sad... guess they oso want the club to function bah... they started to step into the way things function in the club... maybe their recent achievements in the national arena made them kinda "yaya"... inspiring and "haolian-in" is not hard to tell ya... just by saying doesnt help lor... still its the comm members who are doin the work... sacrificin our time for trainin into running the club... wats more they havent been very much interested in affairs of the club... only until their recent achievements... not forgettin tat u've not done their own job properly being the ex comm member...

Do trust that the key u hold be able to open the door... dun try to open the locked door first without inserting the key...

do agree i made a mistake by assumin automation comes after assigning a task to a person... guess both of us are still new to our job... definitely feel tat i was kinda relax in over seeing things getting done tis wk... more emphasis on trainin for the competition tis wkend... who doesnt wanna win... but is it a personal win or a win for the club tat u're tinkin of? mayb tutorials were lackin and lab work caused a sudden twist to the normal schedule... placed priority on my sch work over various events which caused me to overlook many things and pushed them to a later date... now i learn... once i face the prob or decision to take... solve it, deal with it... dun procastinate or i'll definitely forget abt it...

pple alwaes try to argue or shift the blame when things go wrong or not done the way it shld have been... ya guess i was guilty of it todae... listen and learn ya... just dun made the mistake twice...

no mood... at least no swearing from then to now... *good*

those were the daes...

saw this picture on one of the forums tat i frequent... though the title of that post wrote WWW: World Wide Wierd Pictures i dun really tink it was a wierd pic but one tat brings back the good old memories...

my first thought was of the orientation during my 1st 3 mths in JC... tat was the most fun orientation tat i have ever had... though it was more wet flour and soil from the field on our shirts n faces than the mud in the pic... seeing the happy faces in the pic just can't stop me from tinkin of the daes back in JC... definitely more fun than now... mayb i was less matured then bah... the need for fun was more than anything else... haha

2nd thought tat came was the daes in sec sch... haha... was in scouts and we really dipped our selves in those kind of mud durin our camps in ubin... haha... still remembered it was called challenge valley... where we had to walk, crawl, do funny stuff in the mud pool abt knee deep... wah... still remembered we used mud to make funny hairstyles and took lots of pictures... haha i wonder if the mud pool is still in ubin... after so much reconstruction goin on there... hmmm... tink i havent step foot in ubin for years liaoz... guess need to find time to jio my scout buddies to the place where we had our fun and hell-like experiences tat we'll nv forget... guess those hell-like experience turn out to b our most thought of and talked of topics whenever we meet... these memories tat we share with our good frens seems like good old wine... the longer it is the better it gets... and every1 of us play a part in these memories

photos capture the moment of our lives... and thu these pictures we re-live tat very instance tat we ever had... even if its a split second capture... we are still able to see, hear and feel those good memories come alive and enjoy it forever...

i swear...

ya... somehow i've been swearin too much these daes...

din really know of my bad mouthing... til my fren commented recently... its like i will add tis f*** here and there whenever i comment on things... hmmm mayb too stress these daes....

went to shoot in the mornin todae... all thanx to the stupid union dae... tat i've nv celebrated for my 2 yrs in ntu n oso dun know the reason for it... tis caused the sch to cancel the mornin classes and forced us to do makeups here and there... wtf.. oops... here i go again... damn.... opps :( ... i had some bad shots durin the warm up ends and i realise i was cursin for these few arrows naturally... the number of times when multiple f*** came for a particular shot were countless... wahliew jialat ah... haha can see how badly i was shootin todae...

guess i have high expectation of myself... alwaes want my arrows to land at the bulls-eye... hey isnt tat wat all archers want? haha... guess have to find a way to curb me swearing... ya anyone who catches me swearin do fine me a dollar? anyone with better suggestions do comment... thanx...

i swear i will try not to swear... hope i can leave the Fish for the ponds

Steady bo?

one of the fav pastime in sch... people watch...

we recently moved to a new venue... canteen 3 ... the food was better than canteen B... lesser ah tiongs... good flow of pple... the only trade off is the oily smell on ur shirt... eh 1 thing to note...its not becos we kena banned from cant A for bio-ing too much... just tat cant 3 is nearer to our eee sch kk

ya my people watch kakis would definitely agree (i win with both hands n legs) that i have the highest standard for "chai"... few gals in sch hit my target of chio-ness... hmmm mayb i havent seen them all bah... hahaha...

so they will alwaes say tat i'll get double bachelor degree( bachelor of engine and being a real bachelor) after 4 yrs if i dun lower my standard... and i'll alwaes argue tat i have different attitudes towards bio-ing chai and finding a gf... for chais... beauty is definitely the key factor... but for gf... the feeling comes first...

however we all agree tat we need to broaden our frens circle... unlike one of my kakis whom we call him "Tao Hua Lang" whose "nu ren yuan" is the strongest amongst us... whenever we see gals waving or giving a "hello" gesture towards our grp of kakis.. its definitely towards Mr Tao Hua Lang... wahliew how can...ho-oe sad wor... guess its time to buck up...

ready steady go

Another thought on Cars

recently took up this elective called Choice Theory n Reality Therapy...

ya after i pass can get free consulation on any psycho stuff from me... hahaha...

during lesson tis wk the Prof was teachin us our this idea of Total Behavior which really "sparked" me... she used this Car to illustrate the idea tat our behavior is generated in the attempt to get what is wanted...

firstly the car body represents the human wants... the motor or engine which drives the car, represents the 5 basic needs tats genetically encoded in every human... namely Belonging/Love, Survial, Power, Freedom n Fun. similarly this means tat our wants are driven by our 5 basic needs... the wheels represent the 4 components of Total Behaviour... the 2 front wheels represent Acting and Thinking while the 2 rear wheels represent Feeling and Physiology...

for a car... the 2 front wheels can be easily steered by the steering wheel as compared to the 2 rear wheels... which means tat acting n thinking can control our behaviour more easily than our feeling n physiology...

for physiology... we can't control how fast the heart beats... when we're feeling angry or anxious... we dun have direct control over it... we can't stop being angry with some1 immediately... it takes time to subside... comparing acting and thinking, the Prof mentioned tat the humans will have almost total control of our actions than our thoughts... thus we are able to control our behavior by mainly controlling our actions... when we are able to change what we are doing, our thought, feelings n physiological responses changes...

therefore we can control our total behavior to a great extent by doing something different to help us feel good of ourselves...

10 years

wow finally met up with my pri sch classmates after 10 long yrs...

was talking to Joyce thu msn last fri and she asked when we wanted a class gathering... then i said sundae loh... though kinda abrupt n last min but eventually pple did turn up and the gathering was a fruitful and fun

in view of the recent friendster that we managed to find back many of our pri sch mates... ya i agree that i'm one of the guilty ones who din really keep in touch with the pri sch ppl when i enter sec sch... sorry ya ppl :( ... but hey i organised the first gathering okie... so i sort of "me bu" liaoz rites... haha

felt like blind dating cos its been 10 yrs and i guess every1 grew taller (esp qiujin haha) and appearance changed... din really know if i still recognise anyone... joyce even suggested every1 to bring sunflower or red rose to identify... wah... luckily we din but still managed to meet up as planned... those who went: me, yingzhong, joyce, shuyan, qiujin, heike, huimei

i was still able to recognise every1... and they still recognised me... great haha... we met at city hall mrt n had dinner at marche... then we went starbucks to update ourselves for the past 10 yrs or so... the feeling was great... though we din meet up for yrs we still talked non-stop like very old frens... mayb there was just too many things to share bah... ya thu the talkin then did i find gals have large memory space for vengence... "ji chou"... they could still remember which guy who stole their scissors, bullied them, or made nasty comments on them... wahliew... no wonder its wise not to bully gals or they'll remember u for the rest of their lives... haha

thu-out the evenin... we started to recall our sch mates... me n yingzhong were terrible... we kept shakin our heads... couldnt really remember who was who... hahaha... guys r guys lah... guess we could only remember ppl's looks n not their names most of the time... it was really a mistake tat we din bring our pri sch photos or we'll luff til we die... but this made us more determined to dig up more of our photos and to arrange for bigger get togther in a few weeks to come...

pple to pple relationships can really be amazing... 10 yrs and we havent really forgotten any1 or the things we did together... errr mostly still remember lah... thu the things we did we still find joys n laughters, yrs after tat... guess its really fate or a special power tat caused us to know each other and foster relations together... tats y we shld cherish our frens even more... good memories and frens enriches our lives and shld nv be forgotten...

霖

a period of long rain...

my name 佳霖 refers to a period of long rain... then i am an aquarius, the water bearer... tats y i find myself very related to water... h20... rain...

its been a week of sch... and find myself more moody than ever... mayb its the weather bah... rain here and there... mayb no chio bus in lecture bah no motivation... heard gp B better ah worse come to worse must add drop to follow gp B...

things started to get bad esp on wed... flag dae... went to shoot 2 sets of arrows then came the "skyarrows"... rain... bo bian packed up then went gym... at nite... foul mood... went for run... then sleep... 5am in the mornin wake up to "lao sai"... tink i over exhausted... 830am went lecture... siao... felt so sick tat when hall to koon... the rest of the dae went bonkers... later the week other matters came to attention then started to feel the stress... mayb i just want to do things to the best bah...

ya just wanted to blame the weather... national dae comin soon... i heard tat the army usually pumps chemicals into the sky to cause it to rain "profusely" theses few daes b4 the national dae parade so tat on the actual dae... there will b clear skies all ard Sg... hmmm so the rain was man-made?

hmmm mayb my mood was man-made too... been tinkin too much lately bah... stressin myself to the max... wkend liaoz... finally time to relax... guess we shld not "fan" ourselves with "fan shi"... or else all "ma fan" starts to affect us badly... turn -ve stress to +ve stress... we are human afterall not computers tat can do multi-taskin... focus on a task at a time... "chuan dao qiao tou zhi ran zhi" the boat steers straight once it reaches the dock...

hopefully can enjoy this long awaited wkend...